Dying down
SadnessI guess thats pretty cool? Idk, i can't tell. It really wasn't the super fun experience I was hoping for.
I hate to be a downer and all but seeing as a pathetic little journal entry is the only way I can complain and vent my feelings at all, you're gonna have to deal with it.
That is a little sad though isn't it?
Really it started out rather nice. I got to Shogun's got to eat and talk to people, though really I didn't do much talking. I was in the corner and I could barely hear anyone.
Then we drove over to prom!
At first it was a little different but prett quickly I started having fun and really it was pretty great. I danced despite the fact that I suck at it. I got to do some dirty dancing which I always enjoy, haha. And really that went on for an hour and a half or so.
But then it started dying down and I was having a hard time enjoying it.
Honest to god truth, I was super lonely. And for some reason everytime someone asked what was wrong all I could say was "Nothing" or "I'm just tired". Really those were lies.
Sorry if you're reading this and I lied to you.
I never got the slowdance I wanted so badly. Maybe thats my fault though? Idk, I'm sure somehow i fucked this night up.
And so eventually I see some friends leaving and since I really had no reason to stay I walked out with them telling them that my dad was on his way. Really I didn't know if he was or not, I just didn't want them to worry or anything. Sorry Alayna.
And after they left I walked around a bit and when I was finally alone, I cried. Yup, honest and truely I cried. How cleche is that? Crying outside of prom, hahaha.
It wasn't like a weeping cry or anything, just a few tears unexpectedly fell down. After I wiped them off a few friends said bye and one walked over and noticed that I had been crying. Eventually I convinced them I was okay, but I'm sure they knew I wasn't. I am rather proud though that I was able to wait until "after" prom to break down.
and when my dad finally did show up I got the deluxe treatment of being drove home by a drunk who wouldn't stop yelling about how he had to come pick his kid up at 12:30.
So yea.....It was a weird night. good or bad? I don't know.
But to whoever actually reads these things. Thanks
I'm such a silly little boy.
Sorry about not being able to wish it on your actual birthday, I didn't get a chance to get on the computer and my brother had the phone. Happy belated one, anyway.
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There is always something to live for. You just have to get out and look for it.
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There is always something to live for. You just have to get out and look for it.
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And I must admit.. That I had been a bit... Naughty - Freaky Fred
"Phillip, what are you doing here?" "SHHH! It's first minute focus"
Have a nice day!
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Mind on paper_
You have a good day too
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There is always something to live for. You just have to get out and look for it.
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And I must admit.. That I had been a bit... Naughty - Freaky Fred
"Phillip, what are you doing here?" "SHHH! It's first minute focus"
=]
Tis me.
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There is always something to live for. You just have to get out and look for it.
lol, i wasn't expecting you to find me.
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And I must admit.. That I had been a bit... Naughty - Freaky Fred
"Phillip, what are you doing here?" "SHHH! It's first minute focus"
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